It’s happened again. Someone else won my jackpot prize from Publisher’s Clearinghouse. I faithfully filled out the entry page (actually several entry pages). I followed all the rules. I may have prayed that God would guide the PCH team to my apartment to to hand me the big check on live TV.

But…nothing. Zero. Zilch. No check. No jackpot.

So I decided to have a conversation with God about it. I could certainly use the cash. I have a ministry to support, God. And a wife! And a Starbucks habit.

I know you are my Abba, my Daddy. I know you delight in me in the same way I delight in my own sons. So why wouldn’t you give me what I desire?

Of course, God doesn’t owe me an explanation, but because He is gracious, He gave me one.

Psalm 84:11 – “…No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.”

Let’s do some math here. God’s promise to His children is that He will not withhold any good thing from His children. So, if He does withhold something, it must not be good. Perhaps the timing is not right. Perhaps what I think I so desperately need would actually harm me. Perhaps He withholds the gift because I’m not ready to handle it, in the same way a parent would not give the car keys to a 10 year old. Maybe He wants me to seek Him, rather than what He can give me.

Here’s what I’m learning. If He hasn’t given it to me yet, then it’s not good for me yet. I’m learning to trust Him more.

Psalm 84:12 – “…How blessed is the man who trusts in You.”

Still learning.


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